This is Me

There is one word that comes to mind when I think about describing myself: weird.

I can't walk into a store without buying something... I don't want them to think I'm stealing anything.

I enjoy going to the movie theater by myself... no one can make fun of me for crying in the middle of predictable chick-flicks.

I eat ice cream when it's 15 degrees outside, and I drink coffee when the temperature is in the 90's.

I'm a neat freak who has a really hard time keeping my car clean. Seriously- it hasn't been washed in MONTHS.

I dream of having a baby deer... for a pet.

I want to marry a firefighter (don't ask), and I've always wanted to go to New York and audition for a show... just because I can.

And when I'm driving by myself, I totally have conversations in my car.

Like I said, I'm weird. I have my own idiosyncrasies, and-for once in my life- I cherish them. I love the unique qualities that make me "me". I love having a personality, and I am not ashamed of who I am.

Because there was a time I ceased to exist.

Eating disorders tend to do that to you; they are identity destroyers. When the eating disorder moves in, all traces of the real you are forced to move out. You look in the mirror and gaze back at an unfamiliar face. You go through the motions of your day, enjoying nothing and no one.

You, to put it simply, cease to be you.

Want to know what I found out when I ceased to let my eating disorder control my life? I can be "me" again. Idiosyncrasies and all.

My dream for you is that you will find the real "you". I hope this blog will be an encouragement to you, but I also hope it will challenge you to move past those obstacles standing in your way and claim your freedom. There is such thing as recovered- you just have to believe it.

I've shared a little about myself, now how about you? What makes you "you"? I'd love to get to know you a little bit more!